Bubbles in a jar
wishing it can escape
away from life's theater
contrived into reality
It gets one chance
to bubble away
but when it's out
it bursts..
Quieted clamor
wanting out
but confined--
The walls of imagined intuition
where no one may understand
keeps this bubbles confined..
Falling and falling
screaming but no voice
Blow these walls away
only to find out
nothing's changed--
a paradox of life's footlights
coerced into reality...
bubbles in a jar,
can you ever escape?

Eyes so stifling
piercing so and so
a look that's like
fingers pointing
no escape--
A piece of paper
torn though blank
no chance
of being written upon
no chance given,
so i could erase..
Close my eyes
so dark i see
wishful thinking
that all's a dream--
Nightmare, if i may..
Pain be gone
depart my way
I have had so much
couldn't bare no more
can't think straight
reality's askewed
sands for tears
painful to cry..
shameful to cry..
hanging from bent nails
holding, but
falling..
smile for a while
but the weight's
just too much!
When will i ever
call myself free?
Those eyes
that's so stifling
piercing so and so
I close mine
hoping it's gone
wishful thinking
still holding but
falling...

1:32
My heart
at pain's mercy
trying to smile
crying all the while
can i forget?
this pain away
Sleep, wish all is gone
wish i was gone..
Don't they know
my heart's not made
from steel?
still i feel!
cold feet, eyes raining,
heart's bleeding
The pillow's all i have
It doesn't talk
Lifeless..
I envy it
If my heart's
in my stomach
i'll punch it til' it's gone
1:38
feeling numb
heart dead,
still in pain
eyes dry..
pillow wet--
it cried..
I wish pillow could talk
so i'll mend its pain away
I pity it..
It's lifeless--
tomorrow's new
always new, but
my days' still a snippet
of the past
I'm always gonna be
the stupid that is me
in their eyes!
I pity them
for they do not see
what my pillow sees--
they're lifeless..
Heartless..
Inanimate!
I'm not...

Behind these faces of smiles
are tears dying to flow
from pain so hard to rid
from doubts which they do not know
I'm a child
that cries when alone
laughs when everyone sees
dies when asleep
My face painted
with tainted unimaginability
could no longer show
what's real
Everyday i wear
different masks
from fear
fear from showing
my face that cries when alone
dies when asleep
what face must i show
this time again?
What face must i show
so they'll know?
My heart gone solid
from frozen tears
gone mad
from shameless fears
Each day i die
by my own blood and keen
My breath gone from me
often times forcefully...
I am in no position
to make my stand
for i stand on nothing
I am nothing...
They're nothing...
Behind the masks of smiles
that i wore
is a tear
a hundred times fold--
I am nothing..
wish was nothing..
Nothing..